My room is a mess of books and papers. I used to take some pride in keeping it clean, but I don't even feel the urge to do that anymore. This thesis is getting the best of me. I don't even like being in my room anymore because I feel like I should be working on it all the time. All these books surrounding me just don't help the anxiety. And the research, while going, isn't going in the direction I wanted it to, so I'm going to have to alter my thesis a bit, back to what I wanted it to be in the beginning. Thank you Honors Fucking Council for making this harder than it needs to be.
Well...It's only Feb 21st. I'm giving myself until March 15th to have the first drafts done. I think I can do it. Just not tonight. Probably not tomorrow night either. Friday? Yes. Saturday? Yes. Sunday? Yes. But tonight. No. I did a page this morning, that's as much as I can muster. I feel like I should be working on it, but nothing really makes me want to do it. If this paper was about mastering techniques for vinyl, I think I would be all about that. In fact, that's what I want to do when I graduate. Luckily, AES is touring URP tomorrow, so I'm hoping I can make some contacts that will hopefully lead to a job. Who knows. Enough of this.